Mayday.. Mayday!!

The snow is gone. Gone also are the dirty, gray piles of salty sand that collect everywhere after a long winter. Things are greening. It's a relief.

I haven't had a lot to say lately. There has been a lot going on, but it is easy to get lost in yourself and shut people out, even the ones who care the most about you. Emotions take me and make things seem worse than they are.

I was hospitalized for a week with cellulitis in my right leg. Most pain I think I have ever endured. The antibiotics killed every thing in my system. Cravings, sense of smell and taste. I haven't smoked in 5 weeks because of it. I was wondering if after I finished my antibiotics, if the cravings would come back or if I would have withdrawals from the cigarettes, but there were none. I am free.

Love you all. I'll be back soon.